Whine and sigh

i really really dislike whinning...i despise whiny people....but i cant help whinning nowadays....life's a bitch...i feel more n more aunti-er these days...i came to realise that you just have to whine no matter what....i sigh so much that it has become a habit...i dont even realise that im sighing sometimes....disgusting....

every lessons that i've attended, i'll never fail to finish off with a whine...n i think i've developed some sort of disorder...its called BLOODIMIA....its a form of disorder where you suddenly turned so pale due to excessive blood lost.....because u cant stop vomiting blood every minute every second...either u whine too much or kena "gek" too much...this disorder has affected millions of young girls....

its hard being a captain....especially in a sport that you are not so good at....and making decisions....that involve hurting others....been there experienced that....its not easy...
this year my quota is limited....i have to make choices...given so many people who wanted to be in the team....big dilemma....important decisions.....hurt feelings...crushed hope...
exagerrated but true....

sometimes you cant just "kick" people out just coz they are not good enuf....there are predicaments....what if they are your friends...i know its personal..but.............
n what if they are commited and trained hard?...what if those who are good but are simply too arrogant to commit?...do they deserve to be in the team more?..the answer is YES....mean..but yes...u do need THEM...for the sake of winning...n the weak ones will have to be eliminated....life's a bitch that's why....unfair,ugly,realistic and despicable.....