This is dedicated to parents~

Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm ...sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

Courtesy of Facebook~

Patong is the SHIT~

I JUST GOT BACK FROM A FUCKING AWESOME HOLIDAY!

this is the first time i realised tht, DAMN, its good to be SINGLE....

THE WORLD IS YOUR OYSTER~

Just because...

Long time never post PARTY PICTURES....



TEAM FHM~

VS


TEAM ....errr...CIVILIAN?

LOL WATEVER, BITCHES YOU'RE GOIN' DOWN~

If I have DA MONEY

I would do all the extreme activities....all of em....

Bungee, sky diving, rock climbing, surfing, motor racing, everything....

I want to learn new languages, new sports, new dance genres, everything....

I want live life to the fullest and.....die young

Get out out outta hereee

Haven't been blogging for a while because blogging is just so LAST SEASON hahaha.

But I'm blogging now just cuz I'm so SEXCITED for my Phuket trip, happening in One week baybehhhhhh woohooo...ok I know it's just Phuket get over it, but trust me once ur a working adult, fuck la, even Pulau Ubin will do.

So yea, Phuket is definitely Malibu if u ask me.....n well of course, considering how broke I am now, Phuket is really a luxury...n I always say this, doesn't matter where you go, it's always the company!that's right!

I can't wait to get outta this wretched place!

Oh and if I got a good bonus and comm, I might be able to make my virgin USA trip next year!to NY for the trinna!,woohooo

Treat everyday as your last

When I go home this time around, I will make good use of the time.

Spend time with my family and friends.

Because You never know when you will get another chance like this. Life is too fragile.

Lighter

OK i had my crazy days, my days are STILL as crazy but maybe I'm getting immune.

I still loathe my working environment but at least now I'm kept busy so I have less time to ponder and be depressed. At least I got 30percent of shit thrown off my shoulders, the shifting and the GTS presentation to the HODs. 2 down, the rest to go.

And I am seriously missing home. 5 months. new track record.

Thanks

N so i pondered for the longest time...tick tick tick time is running out before u leave....i knew tht YOU are the one that I can finally go to...thanks alot...it means the world to me.

Going insane

To keep my sanity, I distract myself by exercising...run....walk....breathe..watever...always have difficulties falling asleep....breathing...heart racing...what is this?anxiety attack?

Its tough to compare my problem with ppl whom r dealing with much more..war, disaster, hunger, death....but then again, Im just a girl...i cant deal with this alone.

I thought things are much better...but unfortunately its getting tougher n tougher for me...I dont wanna suck it up, I dont want to be strong...can i just take a fall?

Home seems so far away

People kept asking, why don't I have the time to go home n see my family, its been a while...in fact, its been very long.

My work cant possibly be that busy right...yes, right.its not the work.I do have tones of leaves to spare...im serious.

Its especially depressing when u know how much your family misses you n want you to go home so bad....but i just cant.

the real reason being, I simply do not have the GUTS to go home...im embarrassed.

I hereby wish my mother a very HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...forgive me for being such a useless daughter.

Damn Its TRUE

There's always three sides of the story, YOUR side, MY side and the cold hard TRUTH.

Back from a therapeutic holiday

Just got back from Tioman...this time it is really a MUCH NEEDED BREAK...from all the insanity that Im faced with...so not funny anymore.

Turn back time

If I could,



I wanna be a kid again~


Where I feel free and protected in the arms of my parents.

Because everything is just so fucked up..EVERYTHING tht is happening in my life.

For once, i feel like a GIRL...i cried nonstop to the point tht i dont even care if ppl are looking....i stayed strong for too long..its about time...nobody can help me, I cant help myself...game over.

Because ONE day, it might just happen...do not be surprised.

greaaat

WOW...working two weekends in a row, sat n sun...wowza really....like really~

Not good

Today i got back here, feeling more depressed than I have ever felt for the past four yrs...Now this is the real deal, I am definitely coming back to HELL....n i wonder why I felt depressed for no reason last time when Im coming back here for Uni....i wish I could turn back the clock n appreciate those coming-back-to-Uni moments....

I bawled like a baby as I watched my dad's little toyota slowly disappeared away from my bus view...its really depressing n I am not pulling a drama queen here...I even had to blow my nose quietly to avoid unwanted attention.

Its not that Im unhappy for no reason, but Im really seriously unhappy of the whole situation here...Work.

As expected, work is really creating a huge misery for me, to begin with I did not receive my pay for the mth of Jan because of my transfer n complicated position in the company...drama drama drama all over again....n work has not been a smooth ride for me, even tho I have been working for wat?five mths?by right I should be blending in comfortably already but I still feel like a complete stranger shun by others...maybe its coz Im really stupid...slow...dense..watever reason.

Many ppl told me "Just quit la if ur so unhappy"....Trust me I definitely LOVE to quit, but not now...because I am a NOBODY, i cant possibly quit and then start all over again expecting a better environment n better pay...no way~...plus the fact that Im under Employment Pass, so its really hard to get a job if you have a "bad record"....so die die must suck it up for at least few more mths.

I am on still on leave today but I have been doing nothing but check emails n clearing all work related shit since I got back for the past few hours.....

I hate this shit....n I am missing home already.

Wake up call

Today I finally got a wake up call...i checked my BMI at the gym n OH BOY my fat percentage was ABOVE the normal range!!!FML indeed...n to think tht i was so skinny two mths back...with half the fat percentage of the range...n 2kgs lighter...i know u must be thinking 2kgs is nothing but i swear I do feel fatter n today's measurement just frickin' sealed the deal alright~

I dont know, maybe its the drinking, maybe its the gym, maybe its the temptation of Raf Place's food,maybe coz I pulled out of dance or maybe its everything combined....I have never felt so disgusted before I swear....to fall out from the average range is just disgusting, its like saying you're Obese!...call me overreacting but I refuse to succumb to this shit...

Therefore, I fell for it.....I signed on with a PT...there goes...I have better be frickin' fit n toned after this whole shit...I SWEAR....its time to wake up really...n NO i ain't Overreacting!!

N yea, my PT told me to stop drinking so much....yuan lai alcohol really kills...not your liver but ur self esteem...cuz it makes ppl fat....k my resolution is to only drink ONCE a week...haha

my pillar of strength

Thank you to all my wonderful friends out there who gave me the encouragement whenever I whine about work...u know who u are, so thank u each n everyone of u....its comforting really.

Since I am no longer dancing, all I do now is Gym n gym n gym..besides working of course...n I have been heavier despite the fact tht i gymmed more often...ridiculous...so i think i HAVE to believe that it is Muscle weight...confirm...it has to be...i dont care..

But I am feeling much better n healthier too...so heck the weight gain la aiyah its over I dont need to be light cuz I am not dancing anymore so who cares....no nid to flaunt mid rif no nid ppl to carry...no stress just be heavy....but rmbr, heavy doesnt mean FAT...sensitive issue ok...I am heavy with Muscles ok...not fats..

K peace out~

Wishes

I wish for...a better life.

I wish for...a better job.

I wish for...a better pay.

I wish for....a better future.

Of course we can make all these wishes....whether they actually came true, thts another story all together.

As of right now, I wish to be a "bigger" person....to not give up easily n persevere...to not whine about others but focus on my own improvement....to suck it up n pick myself up whenever I took a hard hit....to remind myself that I am always the BETTER person and soon enough, all my wishes will be granted upon.

Peace~

as if im not already being underpaid

I have to suffer a PAYCUT....

God I really do love my life right now...its really getting "better" n "better" each day.

Thank god guns are illegal...either I shoot my boss or I shoot myself.

I know im gettin' boring

Yea this blog used to be filled with haps pics and funny quotes...unfortunately this is the life of an adult....really no time...or simply too tired.

So, what they do?they rant about WORK on blogs...oh boy boring n old n stale n fol indeed.

Work has been pickin' up for me, Im starting to learn a few stuff here n there n no longer doing brainless shit like folding letters n inserting them into envelopes...YES I KNOW RIGHT SJB TTM got paper cut summore pls!!

Now that another senior has returned from maternity leave, things are lookin quite promising to me coz she is the only one tht bothers to teach me n explain things to me from start til end...I will thus seize this opportunity and learn from her as much as I can because opportunities like these only comes once in a blue moon.

Work load is also piling up, Im actually rushing a proposal at home now oh boy...but I got bored so I distract myself with blogging...HAHA the irony, when Im damn free I totally dont blog but when Im not, I do....oh well humans, what can i say...FJ TTM...go figure.

Oh yea, n Im also getting fat even tho I go to the gym like crazy I dont know why...N DONT TELL ME ALL THIS BULLSHIT ABOUT MUSCLE MASS coz who are we kidding here we all know tht that is the biggest bullshit in the world!!Alright resolution is to not succumb to the fat working world and be hot and healthy n successful at work...ALRIGHTTTT I CAN DO IT~

2011

Yes its 2011 but sadly I feel nothing....

But I did had an awesome celebration with my "Family" here in spore...for the first time Im celebrating NY in Spore...cuz Im now a working adult and no longer have the time to go home..sad but true.

Talk about resolutions....I have a very simple one, I am not asking much....I just want to be happy thats all.