Faith

People are going to hate me for this...but i dont care...you may disagree with me..but u cant judge me.

I dont get it...why must one be "overly" religious??to the point that the whole thing seemed like a cult...Im talking about the recent camp that was held in hall...the campers look so young...n they had to be "brain washed" at such young age...what they do??they preach day n nite...in the covered up mpsh...it really seemed like a cult to me Im sorry...

I mean,look at the way they conduct the whole damn thing...I have no problem with people being religious or whatever...but this..just dont seem right...the camp was on for almost a week...n all they do everyday is to preach n preach n preach..y preach so much??I do believe that if u are a good soul...u ARE a good soul..end of story...u dont need Jesus to help u to be a good soul.

I took a peek into the mpsh last nite...n all i see was...a bunch of youngsters looking like they were on trance...they looked like they were high on drugs....closing their eyes n "feeling" the music...or whatever...

Call me an ignorant bitch who doesnt have strong religion base....but I assure u that I am NOT that ignorant...I know it doesnt harm anyone...but its really not necessary at all...n whats the whole damn point of singing the god damn song over n over again for about an hour???urgh i was so freakin annoyed...will god help solve ur problem then?..its all up to u eventually......
ok fine,u might argue that its for "strength" or power or whatever...i just think its a purely BS!

And this afternoon when i came back from soccer training, those kids staying across my room left me some postcards with notes written by them...saying how great it is to be my neighbour blablabla...wtf...we barely even talk to each other!!!goodness...n of course...they all signed of with Jesus love you...wtf...i even freakin' gave my contact lense solution to one of them...n where is the note of appreciation for that???its not even mentioned in the note!!!all they said was...come to my church blablabla n jesus love u blablabla....fuck!...see?this is what i mean...did jesus tell u not to thank anyone properly n leave them "appropriate" messages???did jesus also tell u to write things you dont even mean it?did jesus tell u to fake ur sincerity and only write down redundant stuff to try n please people?fine.....so jesus love me.....whatever...

And of course,I was so disgusted by their "sincerity" that i just chucked the postcards into my bin.

Dont get me wrong...i do know a few good christians n catholics out there...they are fine...they dont go to that extreme...n i do respect them for that.

I am not demeaning anyone's faith or religion here but am just merely stating my own opinion..if u wanna judge me go ahead...because for all i know...I dont give a damn!

Dance Camp

Been slaving my ass for two days non stop...being a comm member really means only being a slave to your members....god damn it!

From doing auntie stuff like going to the supermarket to get raw ingredients to going into the kitchen n cooking....this is my first time ever cooking..like...real food..not just fried eggs n instant noodles...yay..can "kahwin" adi.

Thank goodness my comm members are a bunch of crazy ass Malaysians!woohoo..the comm is totally ruled by Malaysians man....everything is cut short ala Msian style...slack!...even saved up lotsa money from the fund n we plan to "telan" the leftovers...go Bintan or go open bottle...wahaha

Jasmine the auntie is great to bully..Peter the Jay Chou is really funny in cracking lame jokes...i swear to god...he dont even have to tell a funny joke..from the moment he opens his mouth...u'll start laughing...

A Malaysian went to a Computer Shop n asked, "hi, je ge ji kuai?(this wan how much?)"....then the shopkeeper replied, "oohhh, je ge model hen kuai de"(this model is very fast wan)....damn funny can die...even funnier when Peter tells it...wahlao...thank god got this kinda Malaysian.

Well its something tht Sporeans like to mock Msians...about our Mandarin...

Then he can say something like..."Beauty is temporary, but Ugliness is Forever.."..wahlaoooo..genius onot u tell me?laugh until stomach cramp..GG

Indians

hah!just came back fr soccer training...feel so good after a refreshing bath!...luckly me n Miss Neverending Legs Nihara Guruge came back earlier...kakaka..padan muka those who ate lunch..kena caught in the rain...kakakaka...kakakaka...i'll be sure to laugh at them again when i see them

Nihara was so pissed that i called her Indian!.."Im not Indian,Im Sri Lankan"...hah,whatever.like i care..Indians are Indians...no difference...just the matter of how many of degree is your Indian skin color...hers is what i would call, caramel...Gary's would be Dark Chocolate....he wont admit he's Indian as well....he said what,some Portugese shit or something...n Im like...watevaaaaaa (shrugged him off bitchily)...still Indian to me...

And i like making racist jokes to them..its damn fun...Gary was telling me like how everyone here stares at him one kind...then Im like.."duh,u look around u la...like ur sooo "blending" in here that people wont notice u"...bwahahaha...then he was wearing white...and i ask him to go stand in a dark place...then u can see just the SHIRT walking....he can vomit blood just talkin to me.

And Nihara was like.."damn these people,why they have to keep asking me what to eat?i just ordered like a million times,they cant recognize me or what!..."..and Im like,"yea damn,like ur face is so "common" here right?u n all the chinese people here...damn"

Then when she went to pay, all the Indian dudes were totally checking her out....n I check them checking her out...hahaha...
"Those Indian people are like sooo checking u out Niha!"..
"Damn those Indians"

just like how Sherene said, "The angmohs apparently only know Asian people as those yellow skinned and they never classify Indians as Asians...Indians are just Indians"

Wahaha..well said...see how special isit to be Indian?oh,Sherene's Indian as well...hahaha...

Visitors

waah,been walking damn alot these few days...craziness...my legs can qualify for African track d.

Spent few days with my close F6 mates, Sherene n Seng....today just went out with Gary as well.

Feels good to finally have some close friends to talk cock with...really missed the company.
well,its been a while...

GNTM

urrgghh..since exams are over,I have nothing better to do....have been drowning myself with god-knows-how-many episodes of Germany's Next Top Model....in fact,Im so intoxicated by GNTM now...gosh...i need to clear my mind...maybe by watching BNTM,HTNM or AusNTM?ahaha...aih after kena scolded by "some people" for watching too much pointless no brainer bimbotic shows....fine lo.

Its a good thing i have da super fast NUS server...watch everything also super fast...wakaka..unlike "some ppl" back home,have to wait for bloody streamyx who cant be more fucked up..

GNTM is really good i must say...(yea,Im doing all NTM's review now)...initially i was abit taken off by it...because its too lengthy n naggy...n there isnt much drama n action...yea..european girls cant bitch for nuts...all they do is kiss n hug all nite long...deng....

But their quality is superb..quality of the show..the runways..the models..everything is total ass kickin'!GNTM can kick Tyra's big butt anytime!Well altho some of their photoshots are complete rip offs of ANTM..but seriously..who cares?the girls are way "modelly" than those bitches from ANTM...ANTM is all about drama,bitchin' n more drama....from the white bimbos of LA to da black ghettos from Bronx...n not forgetting...its all about Ms. Banks herself.

GNTM focuses alot of runway works....trainings..challenges that booked the girls real jobs...n their walks totally owned ANTM for sure!...well after drowning myself for so many episodes..only towards the end...they started bitching!gosh whats taking them so long seriously...after ten freakin' episodes!..but even the bitching is mild...*sweat*

Oh..n Im so happy that Sherene is coming over tmrw!!cant wait cant wait...at least i have someone whom i can talk to finally....we're going to have so much fun here....n of course..i persuaded her to travel in style with Aeroline...wakakaka

whatever

Something has been bothering me since last nite...n even tho ive finished my paper today,Im not feeling happy at all.

Last nite i talked to my bro on msn....from then onwards....i just couldnt concentrate on my exam...i cant sleep last nite...i cant study...i cant concentrate on my paper today...i dont even care anymore that i didnt gave my best on tht paper...yea,it was like shit.

Sometimes i wonder if coming here is a right choice...i know ive said it many many times...n there's no point dwelling upon it...but...its just too difficult to not wonder.

Am i being irresponsible?i dont know..everything is just so confusing to me right now.

My siblings are too young to take all this shit!I am so fed up with all the stuff they have to go thru when they are not even halfway thru childhood yet...I am so fed up that I get to have a normal childhood and they dont....I am so fed up with everything.
apart of me wish that i can be there to support them...but another part of me just feel like avoiding everything and not go home....I am really sorry that i have not been a good sister.

Done with Soci

Eating is a Social thing!..this is so true.....just go to random blogs and you will see that at least one or two pics or posts about food...n when friends meet..all they do is settle down in some "atas" restaurant or mamak..then start cam whoring...everything is a Social thing.
Wahaha..sorry for the deep sociology..well..just finished my soci paper today...well of course this eating thing is not part of my essay...been trying so hard to fit it in...but...out of point la dude.
That paper drove me nuts...I did one question where i just practically crapped my way true n wrote my own grandmother's story...hopefully it'll make her proud.

Anyway,Im not done yet regarding the whole eating thing...which drives to the point...of Marxist's conflict theory...where only the rich can afford...ahaha..damn...i see theories everywhere now...my life will never be the same again with sociology!yea..but Marx was right...u see ah...when u go meet ur friend,u sure wanna go somewhere with nice ambience n good food...more on ambience actually coz good food even mamak can get...so yea..u need money money money...which explains...why my social circle sucks here...n its slightly better when im in KL...coz too poor ma here...

This whole notion eventually drives me to my next point,which is....totally unrelated.The other day i was watching my "Fave" Tyra Show...i just had to laugh my ass off...even tho no normal or sane (or smart) person would find it funny...the episode is about "FRENEMIES"..where two best friends constantly competes against each other...looks,car,clothes,boyfriends,etc....but the only thing i find funny is....that those two of them are damn fat!!!!ahahaha damn mean..ok watever.

Yeah as I was saying....I dont get it..I mean..the whole idea of competing n when ur rich...there must be some degree of hotness in you in the first place right?no?..I mean,i just dont get it!...they seemed rich n spoilt...can afford aston martin n versace...whats the problem then??
why not a slimming session n liposuction???as mean as i sound,it just doesnt make sense!!!

The funniest part is...they think that they are damn hot liddat...trying to compete n pick up guys here n there...WALAOOO...memang dengan tak malunyaaaa...damn funny...I mean,i just dont get it la...look at all the bimbos in OC n stuff...they are all skinny because they are rich...personal trainers,diets,eating disorder,etc...i call these,rich people's disease.

Then panda have this interesting theory,she said...maybe coz they are rich thats why they dont have to be skinny....they can do whatever they want...what can u get from being skinny anyway??not everyone can be America's Next Top Model...not everyone can be in OC...so doesnt matter la..just eat all u can n be rich n happy..hmmm...kinda make abit of sense now...

Totally random...teeheehee....i still love Tyra.