Wtf man

I am so emo words just cant describe how emo i am right now...i know its typical to be emo-ing...urgh i hate the word emo....emo is such a gay thing.

I am hating myself for becoming more n more like you....all the drinking...all the emo-ing...
no...i am not like you...i will not let myself to be like you....as much as i hated you for being that way, you mean the world to me...i love you so much..n i know you love me even more....i dont know what will happen to me if i ever lose you one day....

urgghhh i am so emo i want to slap myself n die.............yet another sleepless morning.

Sharp turn

Sometimes people are brave enough to make bold decisions....I have tons of respect for them.
I wish I could do the same...but there are too many consequences...lets not be selfish here...

To my dear friend, whatever decisions you have made, Im with you....stress not...you did the right thing....in fact, you are smart enough to run away....hold no regrets...it is indeed the right choice.

It is eating into each n everyone of us... worth it?no matter how many thousand times I think through again n again, its still not worth it....how can I ever make it right?

Pray?...yea fuck.

Is he ugly?

what time isit what time isit?OLE OLE its show time!!!WRONG!!ITS BITCHING TIME!!!!

so..who is this poor "victim" we were preying on?tsk tsk tsk....

Convo with Bixs

U-Fern-Alexis says:
true
U-Fern-Alexis says:
n he got face problem so.
bixian says:
hahahahahah
bixian says:
FACE PROBLEM
bixian says:
thats a unique way of saying he's ugly
U-Fern-Alexis says:
he is not tht ugly la
bixian says:
he dunno he looks ugly
U-Fern-Alexis says:
if he acts normal abit then he is ok wan
bixian says:
he thot he damn exaggerated
bixian says:
but actually
U-Fern-Alexis says:
but he tries too hard thts y he looks...erm
bixian says:
he's ugly
U-Fern-Alexis says:
face prob face prob
U-Fern-Alexis says:
never ever say ugly
U-Fern-Alexis says:
nevvverrrrrrr
U-Fern-Alexis says:
its mean
bixian says:
HE'S UGLY LA
U-Fern-Alexis says:
nooooooooooooooooooooo
U-Fern-Alexis says:
dont say ugggllllyyyyyyyyyy
bixian says:
u're acting like a vampire who saw light
U-Fern-Alexis says:
coz im a nice girl who doesnt use the term ugly on people ok
U-Fern-Alexis says:
never
U-Fern-Alexis says:
noone is born ugly ma
bixian says:
NICE girl?
bixian says:
this yr is it sch start earlier
U-Fern-Alexis says:
yea meh
U-Fern-Alexis says:
no la
U-Fern-Alexis says:
i also dunno
U-Fern-Alexis says:
yo yo kr...wateverrrr
bixian says:
HAHAHHAA
bixian says:
GG la u
U-Fern-Alexis says:
loves it
U-Fern-Alexis says:
hmmml.actually yea la..he is damn ugly
U-Fern-Alexis says:
yo yo kr ...wateverrrrr
bixian says:
SEEEE
bixian says:
u agree wif me man
U-Fern-Alexis says:
ok since i already took the first step
U-Fern-Alexis says:
i might as well add summore
U-Fern-Alexis says:
he is UGLY N FAT
U-Fern-Alexis says:
bwahahahhahaha
U-Fern-Alexis says:
ugly fat naggy n angsty
U-Fern-Alexis says:
nono..wait...ugly fat naggy angsty sweaty scary oily....n very smart...GG
bixian says:
so evil uuuuuu
bixian says:
den ........ v sad eh
bixian says:
he's the only one who doesnt get to do ...................
U-Fern-Alexis says:
who cares
U-Fern-Alexis says:
yo yo kr.wateverrrr

bixian says:
so sad
bixian says:
for him
U-Fern-Alexis says:
u join .......... la
U-Fern-Alexis says:
then he can do
U-Fern-Alexis says:
coz he can oni do with u
bixian says:
i'm too hot for him lorh
U-Fern-Alexis says:
he is too hot for other girls ma
U-Fern-Alexis says:
so decided he cant do lo
U-Fern-Alexis says:
after other girls melt in his arms
U-Fern-Alexis says:
ewwwwwwwww
bixian says:
OH PLS
bixian says:
hahahahah
bixian says:
melt in his armsssss????
U-Fern-Alexis says:
pssssssssssssssssss

Winner once more

Congratulations to the RAG TEAM....KRHOME manage to repeat KRONOS' history once again....Bagged nearly every award....including the most coveted Chancellors Shield....most importantly to us dancers, the Best Presentation award....I am so proud of Kriss n Mellie...n Vania n gang.

The float was amazing...it would be a total fluke if they didnt win....it was done in the most intricate manner....every single part was clad with so much details n creativity.....i take my hats off to the designers...

We went for a mini celebration with the dancers after that...we hung at the rooftop area of Vivo while eating our Carls n Kfcs...bitched and joked around....Was telling them how master's turban looked so nice and expensive....then Peter had to come out the funniest thing to say...."You know where he bought it from?".....New TURBAN Male.......wahahahahahahaaha..trust GGPete to say the lamest yet funniest thing.

Had a mini drinking session at the studio after that....nothing much...it wasnt the same as the last time we had ours....the people werent the same...the atmosphere...everything...i was complaining to CT throughout the entire thing....how boring it was...maybe they are all too young...I dont know...whatever it is...we really missed the seniors....damn,I think im hitting mid life crisis...

Tipsy

Just got back from Yenny's bday drinking session....a lil tipsy but still fine...damn tmrw gotta get up at 11 for rag..GG

They were literally trippin' all over the places....no kidding...broken glasses everywhere...

Finally met Mel's date, Jackson from da hood yo'.....his name's not jackson la...its just tht he looks like a jackson so we decided to call him that...damn, tht dude's really speaking ghetto no kiddin'...at one point I was really struggling to understand him....dayyuummm

Anyway...i almost pengsan-ed in the shower I have no idea what am i crappin' now...probably gonna wake up tmrw n see this super GG post n delete it.....trippin' yo'.

Learning Indo

Went for Indo Placement test today...coz I did Malay before so in order to take Indo I must go for the placement test to see how much Im familiar with the language...duh....of course not very familiar right?

Anyway..due to my unnecessary honesty, I got into level 4....Fucuk taofu!!!!
I tried writing a damn lousy essay about Keluarga Saya..(my family).....its seriously soooo lousy that I was quite embarrassed to submit...even Uncle Lim can do better I think...shit..shall not make fun of the dead...my point is....it is soooo freakin terrible....n they said it was good....wtf!!!

Bapa saya seorang kontraktor....Dia sangat penyayang...Ibu saya suri rumah....shit like this i wrote can u belif it???im a freakin Uni student!!!!!

I only found out later that....you shouldnt even attempt the essay at all if u wanna get into lower level.....heck,ppl walked out of the room in ten minutes can u belif it???never even do the essay part....i so semangat somemore,write 150 words.....i just GG-ed myself.....fucuk taofu betul!!!

And apparently, nobody even says PENYAYANG okay wat the heck ws i thinking???penyayang is apparently too extreme.....according to Pek, must say SAyang banyak-banyak.....walaoooooooo my Malay is seriously too good until I cant even fake it the right way~!!!!!!!why why why am I sooo good in malay??????its a curse.....shall name my son Tunku Abdul Johnson....fusion between ghetto n Melayu...GG

N i even understand the short article!!!n Im not suppose to understand it if i wanna fake into the lower level laaaa.........deng....can go n tell Kenning about the whole story somemore after that!!!how this old guy maksiat with the writer's sister n he turned out to be as old as her father n how this guy go n maksiat with the brother's gf as well....FUCUK!!!!!its damn deeeeeepppp n i understood it!!!!!PADAN MUKA la.....i dug my own grave la GG.

N so now...i am contemplating whether to do it or not....it seemed stressful now that Im doing level 4 but on the other hand....it seemed fun...coz I really get to experience new things...my cores are going to be sooooooooo boring,even more boring than my grandma's hokkien dramas.....at least I have some class to look forward to.....n yay...there's a project which require us to travel to Indonesia!!!!!!!!!!

Was talking to one of the lecturer....she was telling us there's a field trip to Indo....n we were damn excited.....until she potong-ed our steam..."But its Batam larrr"......"Oouu"~lemah semangat~

Playin' cheesy

Zeee holidays are finally ending....cant believe i gave up the entire month of july being here....time really flies....schools starting in about a week....this week is not any slack one either....with rag n flag coming....i really miss the time i had three weeks ago...where i was a refugee living on a vacation....

Now that the "Cool" performance is over...i have nothing much to look forward to...rag dance isnt exactly something that you look forward to practicing every night for the entire week....no offense but...try denying it n see....nope...you simply cant!no matter how much respect i have for my fellow choreos....rag dance just isnt something that i love...yea...love's a strong word...but dancing is all about loving aint it?...
nevertheless...regardless how much i dont fancy rag dance, I still do give my all in performing it....heck,I have to be an elve for goodness sake, now whats all that shit about me being unprofessional huh?I must be a GOD DAMN professional to bring myself to do something like that okay...all that cheeky smiling, cheesy acting, retarded hopping, n fancy costume....urgghhh

Luckly there are two more keewwwl dances awaiting moiii for hall bash...that'll make up for everything i guess....

This is in fact the first time I had a free weekend since weeks ago...practices are still on at nite...but i was actually free to go out with Nay..
Had a fancy Mexican dinner at Holland V with that woman on Sat nite n slept thru the entire day on Sunday.....n then...Had dinner with Bixs at PGP before going for rag prac...damn my life is brilliant aint it?Naaawwwwtttt..

I am soooo guilty for cheesy teenage soap....am running out of series to watch n then i found this new series The Secret Life of The American Teenager....yea it was stupid alright....but somehow u just cant resist cheesy stuff u see....well at least I had a good laugh at all the cheesiness....those "yea right" moments...ya' know.