Going insane

To keep my sanity, I distract myself by exercising...run....walk....breathe..watever...always have difficulties falling asleep....breathing...heart racing...what is this?anxiety attack?

Its tough to compare my problem with ppl whom r dealing with much more..war, disaster, hunger, death....but then again, Im just a girl...i cant deal with this alone.

I thought things are much better...but unfortunately its getting tougher n tougher for me...I dont wanna suck it up, I dont want to be strong...can i just take a fall?

Home seems so far away

People kept asking, why don't I have the time to go home n see my family, its been a while...in fact, its been very long.

My work cant possibly be that busy right...yes, right.its not the work.I do have tones of leaves to spare...im serious.

Its especially depressing when u know how much your family misses you n want you to go home so bad....but i just cant.

the real reason being, I simply do not have the GUTS to go home...im embarrassed.

I hereby wish my mother a very HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...forgive me for being such a useless daughter.

Damn Its TRUE

There's always three sides of the story, YOUR side, MY side and the cold hard TRUTH.

Back from a therapeutic holiday

Just got back from Tioman...this time it is really a MUCH NEEDED BREAK...from all the insanity that Im faced with...so not funny anymore.

Turn back time

If I could,



I wanna be a kid again~


Where I feel free and protected in the arms of my parents.

Because everything is just so fucked up..EVERYTHING tht is happening in my life.

For once, i feel like a GIRL...i cried nonstop to the point tht i dont even care if ppl are looking....i stayed strong for too long..its about time...nobody can help me, I cant help myself...game over.

Because ONE day, it might just happen...do not be surprised.